the sad thing is, everyone thinks they’re so forgettable, or they don’t mean anything to anyone. but you don’t see your high school friend, smiling to themselves, when they think about your quirks or how dramatic you used to be whenever you got a crush. you don’t see the person who saw you around a lot but was always too shy to talk to you. you don’t remember the person you helped, and maybe you didn’t do much for them, but you didn’t know that they were having a shitty month and you sparked their first real smile in weeks. you don’t see the person that secretly loved you too, who never forgot the soft words that you said, or the way you smiled whenever you saw them, or how you reminded them of sunshine and flowers; and how the thought of you pops into their mind more than you will ever know and in the randomest of places. you will never know that a soft song or strawberries or a sunset will remind someone of you. they will go to the beach and think of you for some reason, until they remember that the last time they saw a color as beautiful and as profound as the ocean was when they looked in your eyes. no one knows their impact on people, or their worth. no one thinks they will be missed when they leave, but they don’t know that once you go into someone’s life, even for a fleeting moment, you stay forever, and you take up a soft place that no one else could ever replace.
things that will happen to you:
- you will find a new song that you can play on repeat when you can’t sleep
- new people will come into your life unexpectedly and make everything better
- you will get good grades, graduate and find a job that you like
- your heart will heal and you’ll slowly learn to manage the pain
- good things that will make you v happy to be alive
tag yourself
60’s - kisses on the hand, soft acoustics, keeping a journal under the pillow, walks in the rain, old films, a bouquet of roses at the doorstep, secret love letters, old newspaper articles, talking to the moon
70’s - gentle hum of the radio, rose gardens, soft filters, yellow tinted sunglasses, fuzzy sunlight on a meadow, perfumes on silk, pearl earrings, ladybird on an eyelid, french literature
80’s - potted plants on the balcony, stargazing with your best friend, dusty video games, old coffee shops, bike rides to the lake, revisiting childhood nostalgia, flower-embroidered sleeves
90’s - eye circles, midnight drives to nowhere, falling in love recklessly, denim jackets, ripped pages in a diary, thinking about past lovers, listening to music until 3am, the dark phase of sunsets, mixtapes
00’s - believing in magic, smiling at strangers, dreams of being someone, hearing an old song you used to like on the radio, birthday cards from friends who don’t talk to you anymore
10’s - goodnight texts, fairy lights on the wall,flowers on eyelids, the view of a city from an apartment, feeling lonely on the train, sending a million hearts, feeling yourself changing for the better
types of love I feel for you:
peachy love - a comfy love, as cozy as afternoon sunlight in the summer, as warm as coffee shops and summer picnics. being with you is like listening to music - I forget my worries and sunlight is brighter. sharing tiramisu cake, laughing so hard tears surface, going on adventures…moments like these carry a hint of soft nostalgia, even while they are happening.
starlight love - I’m enchanted by the pretty colors in your eyes - when the sunlight hits them, they remind me of precious stones. I imagine talking to you until 3 am on a rooftop, the stars bright above, frozen in time. when I look at you, it’s like admiring a beautiful work of art. thinking about you makes my heart blush. I can’t help but gaze at you, wondering how anyone could be so perfect.
rosy love - seeing you gives me butterflies. you make me feel calm and flustered at the same time, a feeling I’ve never felt before. sometimes, I imagine a soft love song that plays in the background when I’m with you, like we’re in a movie. all I want to do is cuddle with you, lie next to you, go to cute ice cream parlors and hold your hand. I’m either with you or waiting to see you again, and you make me happier than anything else in the world.
lunar love - you know my secrets, I know yours. like the moon, you understand my mannerisms, emotions and thoughts like no one else, and I can tell from a glance if you’re only pretending to be happy, or if something is troubling you. at night when you can’t sleep, I’m here. when I’m sad, you know the perfect things to say. It’s like we were both created to heal and comfort the other, like soulmates. I know that as long as you’re here, I’ll be okay.
take chances with people. if you want to get closer to them, make sure they know you want to spend time with them. go to have coffee with them, text them first, make them feel loved, tell them little things that you love about them. most people find it hard to make the first move, both in friendships and romantic relationships, so a lot of potential relationships never happen. life is too short. so go for it, because more often than not it can make life brighter and softer and happier.
you have to get yourself out of bad places. you need to resist the temptation to let everything slip and become apathetic & cynical toward yourself and your life. you need to accept that it takes time to change and it’s ok to fall over as long as u get back up. every morning is a new start and things don’t have to be this way forever. you can heal and you can change.
this year will be wonderful. you will meet new people who will feel like sunlight. someone out there will be lucky enough to meet you. you will see breathtaking views. you will learn so much knowledge from your studies and gain so much wisdom. there will be bad days but you will heal and start again in the morning. you will discover what makes you happy. you will fill up journals with scribbles and messy drawings. you will feel low and make mistakes but they will help you become a stronger person. you will pick up new things that give your life meaning and you will pour your heart into it. you will find songs that speak to you more than anything else in the world. you will grow. this year is waiting for you and it’s beautiful.
little happy things:
- seeing someone who is equally as excited to see you
- when you’re somewhere beautiful, away from things that stress you out
- actually completing your homework quickly without procrastinating too much, and then sleeping on time
- when your friend shares a generous amount of food with you
- reading something that perfectly describes what you’ve struggled to put into words
- starting a new journal with new stationery
- waking up in the morning and feeling happy for no reason
- discovering a new favourite tv show, song or person that makes you excited again
- making food or art and then feeling proud of your creations
- realizing that you don’t care anymore about something that made you sad or anxious before
gentle and kind things in the world
- the moon’s glow on a misty evening
- the scent of bakeries in the morning
- pretty colors in the sky
- fairytales and old books
- fluffy animals that run up to you and nuzzle their soft face into your hand
- when someone is happy to see you
- rainbows appearing in a cloud
- the warmth and scent of freshly laundered clothes and towels
- bumblebees flying from flower to flower
- blooming flowers and gentle rays of sunlight after a freezing winter
- making your favorite person laugh
- people that sweet nice things without expecting anything in return
- seeing someone smile for no reason
- forests that are home to thousands of creatures and trees
- someone making something for you, like a playlist, a meal or a knitted scarf
- doing something sweet for someone and seeing how happy it makes them
- nicknames, mutual affection and warm hugs
- snow that looks like powdered sugar
- sweet fruits that are good for you like apples and strawberries
- going grocery shopping with someone u love
- plush toys, soft pillows and warm blankets
- warm glows of street lights in a city
- your favorite sweater that keeps you warm
- songs that understand you
- songs that make you want to dance
- walking barefoot on a beach in summer
- the gentle crunch of leaves and warm mugs of hot cocoa in autumn
- birdsong that wakes you up gently
- old paintings of flowers and sceneries
- albums you can play on repeat that you never get sick of
Things to distract you from feeling sad:
- make playlists of songs that make you happy
- eat some fruits and mix them in yogurt
- have a long cry if you’ve been holding everything in
- don’t go on your phone, brew some tea, sit in a warm comfortable spot and read a book
- don’t stay in bed too long
- write a list of things that make you excited or happy
- listen to music and go for a walk if it’s sunny
- watch a feel-good movie and drink a mug of hot chocolate
- reminisce good memories, they’re proof that life can be lovely
- spray some perfume
- read posts or quotes that inspire you
reasons to be happy:
- kind-hearted people exist and the world is full of good things that aren’t broadcasted
- dogs are always happy to see you
- you can look at works of art for free - the sky, stars, sunsets, the moon, flowers, books, your lover/friends
- you can make art and make someone a little happier whenever you want to
- you are made from stardust, and magic exists if you look for it
- good things and lovely feelings exist everywhere
- there is no limit to restarting your life and creating new beginnings for yourself
- you can learn anything you want and the world is out there for you to explore
- you can travel to other universes and time-travel in the form of dreams, books, art, movies, music and your imagination
things that can help ease anxiety:
- a hot soothing drink like chamomile tea
- warm yellow lighting, like a little lamp
- sweet scents or candles
- reading a paper book
- organising things
- holding a cushion or pillow
- a big bowl of soup
- listening to songs that are calming
- light exercise or a walk in a quiet street
- fresh warm laundry and a tidy room
- remembering things you’re thankful for
- soft and comfortable clothes
